//the color of my thoughts

2006-04-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

squidgle.blogspot.com

me and lous new home. ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-check it out! =)

closing of a chapter

2006-04-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

this blog is over. for good. toodles.
expect a new blog from lou and i sometime soon. will post the adress when its up.
xx

2006-04-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

he said we were make believe
i thought he said maple leaves

woah. tis been a while!! =) IM COMING HOME!! hehe! today was the last day. it was awesome!! we had a 2 hour long assembly, i was next to michelle and kirsty and we cracked jokes through the whole thing. but there was an old guy who made a speech-and no jokes, it was 18 MINUTES LONG!! and at one point hes like 'i will now go onto my 2nd example...' and everyones like 'uhh...are you serious?? that was just ONE?!?' aha. but he was cute. aw..!
and after school we had a goodbye to mrs collins, the house manager. was awesome!! all us seniors stood up and did a spice girls song, with cleverly altered lyrics!! woah. then yeah, it was fun! we all ran round saying bye to everyone...and then. now im here! heh.

firstly-i must say this of this term-im being rather lusted over!! lol! no jokes-6 different guys fancy me!! theres one guy in the yr below-so yr 12, and hes absolutely obsessed with me!! hes best mates with a really good mate of mine, dove, and his name's charlie. ive never even talked to him! but he saw the boarders photo of me last yr and he went on to ema saying 'shes so hot!!" then this year 2 of our classes are close to each other. so we kinda collide twice i week. and i jst get so embarassed, so i look at the ground. and then last tuesday i walked past and said hi, and he said hi back, and he went up to my friend, christine and was like 'OMG! SHE ACTUALLY TALKED TO ME!!!' and wouldnt shuttup about it for the whole day =/ its a tad creepy really! but the other boys are sweet, they keep giving me presents and taking me out for coffees and stuff. even though ive TOLD them i dont like them like that! ive got anthony! who's flying down for the formal! woop woop! =)

man it was awesome last night! it was our last night in, so there was a wee house meeting, and basiucally they give out chocolate to select people! and I WAS ONE OF THEM!! yay!!! it wasa on my list of things to achieve for my last yr in StAC!! they were like 'this person has gotten to know all the new boarders, likes parading round in her pyjamas, and dances instead of walking... joo...' and iw as like 'AH!!' and i couldnt stop squeaking!! it was really exciting! heh

me and feebz at mrs collins leaving lunch. (happy birthday for the 22nd mi lovechild!xxx)

me and ish. we were trying to look whimsical, but i started laughing at the last possible minute

see you soon!!
xxoo

2006-01-30T01:46:00.000-08:00

okay, this'll be short and sweet-ive only got 6 mins left on this computer! dangnabbit... im in sinagpore airport btw!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANA!!!
i love you so so so so so so so much!! keep emailing me okay? i love getting your stuff! and youre so silly for being worried about 17! the big ONE-SEVEN! woot! =) its gonna be awesome! and youre gonna improve with age-even though thats basically impossible. you're already perfect <333

thanks for an awesome holiday everyone! i miss you all, and email me!! i love it! =)
xxoo

fingerless gloves. makes for good handholding sessions

2006-01-26T19:37:00.000-08:00

2 things i love/

pete wentz

being photogenic with lou <3

we are bold.

2006-01-23T21:23:00.000-08:00

i put your picture in a frame and put it upside down on my desk so you couldnt get out.

a true photo of youself is one that reflects you. how you see yourself. this photo is a true photo. most people see me as a goof, or eccentric. the photo just shows me lying on a cushion, day dreaming. its how i see me - a dreamer.

6 songs to get you through the day
- taking back sunday "cute without the e"
- stephen fretwell "emily"
- fall out boy "dance dance"
- end of fashion "oh yeah"
- coldplay "fix you"
- meatloaf "bat outta hell"

on other notes..MY ROOMS ALMOST DONE!!!! woot woot! photos will be up asap! im very excited =) lou. i cant wait to see you on saturday!! showercaps, sunnies and lipstick. if i cant find my lipstick we'll just pop into the body shop okay? i love you many!

xxoo

this is a tribute to ME

2006-01-22T19:38:00.000-08:00

woot! ive FINALLY found one! for about 2 days ive been on a quest to find a song called 'jo' or 'johanna'. after realising there was a song called emily, or louise, i was getting upset. BUT IVE GOT ONE! By eddy grant i present 'gimmie hope, johanna'. (the lyrics are excedengly appropriate!)

Well Johanna she runs a country
She runs in Durban and the Transvaal
She makes a few of her people happy, oh
She don't care about the rest at all
She's got a system they call apartheid
It keeps a brother in a subjection
But maybe pressure can make Johanna see
How everybody could a live as one

(Chorus:)
Gimme hope, Johanna
Hope, Johanna
Gimme hope, Johanna
'Fore the morning come
Gimme hope, Johanna
Hope, Johanna
Hope before the morning come

and i also found 'Johanna' by dido, and 'visions of johanna' by bob dylan. woot! im very happy now :)

2006-01-19T07:21:00.000-08:00

me and mitchy in our matching hoodies.

2006-01-19T07:07:00.000-08:00

phoebe, ish and ema (phoebes wearing the same hoodie as me!!)

glasses-a new way to see through me

2006-01-19T06:52:00.000-08:00

i miss him. but i dont miss him. im so weird. ahaha. at the moment i feel like a pair of scales. toppling over towards one side a little to easily. im going through my whole 'emotional-right-before-i-leave' stage. it sucks. i cant even describe just how much it sucks. i love nz. but i love brunei. people always say 'arent you glad to go home??'. bruneis my home. i love it, and ill never stop loving it. and i hate it how i only even begun to apprciate it from the time i knew i was leaving till when ive left.

setting it all out straight...

i live in a boarding school. i love it to peices. i have great, close friends in boarding-phoebe, michelle, ema, and ish. ema just left. ish is yr 10, and phoebe and mitchy are yr 11. and im a waffling big yr 12. i had my yr 12 friends in boarding-holly, fliss and avril. but they all left this yr. therer are 10 more girls in my yr-all of them bitchy and plastic. and im weird un as unplasticaslly as you can get! ...so not my kinda people, ay? i love my younger friends. but when i go to year group meetings who am i supposed to go with? what about assemblys? ..oh god... and im really really starting to worry about going back. i honestly love it to there, but i really really REALLY hope that another NORMAL person starts boarding. i could hang out with my guy friends, but id get called a slut. if i hang out with the girls in my yr then im 'a bitch'. its a loose/loose situation. i just dont know what to do...i want normal people! argh!

*end of rant*

2006-01-01T02:24:00.000-08:00

happy belated birthday to loulou. sorry babe, its late-but here's my tribute:

lou, i love you to abosolute peices. youre amazing. ive known you since yr 9, but known OF you for ages. i have one massive regret with you-not getting to know you sooner. and of course not inviting you to my dog themed birthday party..i hope you find room in your heart to forgive me! new years eve was amazing because of you. i wasnt sure if you'd take the sugestion of doing arobics at 1:30 in the morning seriously. what was i thinking?!?!? of course you would. =) i love you to peices mi love-youre the most awesome friend anyone could ask for. dont let any one think low of you-youre better than them. hell, youre better than me. youre brilliant. no...youre grand. and hillarious. and. yeah. i love you sooo amazingly much, and i cant wait till i next see you. good luck with youre exams, and im very excited about our next close up photo!! woot. =) love you babe!

and naz. im gonna miss you so much. you have nooo idea how hard it was to say goodbye to you at the empire on friday. i was soo on the verge of bursting into tears. it was great how close we were last holiday! and the whole ray joke. 'big lips and a double chin....just like me!! AHH!' teehee. i love you to skittles. but keep on emailing, and sending mikey photos over. teehee. and dont worry about the new school-everyone will love you as much as we do here.

oh. and happy new year. =)

xoxo

2005-12-24T12:08:00.000-08:00

merry xmas!! xoxox

bEautywaSatigEr

2005-12-20T14:15:00.000-08:00

my sunday was FULL OF ADVENTURE!!
ive been meaning to blog about this for agess!!! so here i go!!

on sunday i went swimming with dolphins!
Hectors dolphins are only found in new zealand. the female is averagely 1.5m while the male is averagely 1.2m. they are one of the smallest dolphins in the world.
^^i was paying attention when the woman was talking on the boat! (:
so yeah, we had to put on wetsuits-7MM THICK!! they were soo hot! i was actually sweating. and it was 17degrees out. thats how hot they were. it was disgusting!
so yes, since it was 17 degrees the water was freezing. me and edward were the first ones in. like at first you were frozen, but soon it was alright. only your hands would be cold cos they were the only bit uncovered. no dolphins were showing up. the woman on the boat pointed at me and said 'the girl with the blonde hair, can you come over here please?' ...umm...hello! my hair is black! or relatively black! it was silly...there were like 4 blondes on our boat, and i got called the blonde...err...okay! haha..
so she called me over, gave me 2 stones and told me to bang them together under the water. so i did. and the dolphins came!! it was amazing! we spent about 35 mins with them. then got out and found a dolphin and her baby. it was great. and we found another pod of dolphins a bit later and hung round with them for a bit. on the way back i tried to take photos of them swimming beside our boat, but they were too fast! lol.

on the ride back from akaroa to christchurch, we found a cherry picking place. and we managed to pick 3kg of them! ..me getting the most of course! ahahah...whatever :p it was great fun!

so that was my exciting sunday! probaly one of the best days ive had! (: and now im excited, cos its ONE WEEK TILL I FLY HOME!!! i cant wait!! eee!!

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever

me&edwaRd on the 'queSt' for doLphins

2005-12-20T13:53:00.000-08:00

2005-12-19T18:51:00.000-08:00

me cherry picking. how festive!

yes...theres a dolphin in there somewhere! (:

2005-12-19T18:37:00.000-08:00

...iSn't she aLterNative...?

2005-12-14T19:38:00.000-08:00

some photos ema took of me round the school for her photography project. she just send them over (:

2005-12-14T19:36:00.000-08:00

2005-12-14T19:35:00.000-08:00

2005-12-14T19:33:00.000-08:00

...iSn't she aLternatiVe..?

2005-12-14T18:58:00.000-08:00

2005-12-12T19:52:00.000-08:00

and if i've gotta be damned
well then i wanna be damned
dancing through the night with you

im swimming with dolphins on sunday !
just my random wee fact for the day-couldnt help it-im so excited!

and i would do anything for love
but i wont do that

i had such a good time yesterday. went to a party. much fun...was slightly hungover yesterday, but meh. totally worth it (: cant be bothered to go into detail...another time!

no i wont do that

2005-12-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

just some random pics i found in my photobucket (:
me and bhavna
zak and hadley
me and naz
tai, me and hana. miss u xx
me and lulu
charlie and hana
me and lulu! ...we're so funny (:
the number 1 man in my heart...napoleon!

,xx

2005-12-07T21:41:00.000-08:00

well it's been a long 8 weeks and 4 days away from home so far, but thankfully i know its only another 2 weeks anbd 6 days to go (: ...yes, im homesick.

holidays started last friday. i finshed my last exam about 2 weeks ago. for about a week i was bored stiff. thanks to all the other boarders who stayed in and kept me company and stopped me from pulling my hair out with insanity (: and especially thanks to my new BF!. ...subtle! hehe. yes, yes, i have a bf. and hes amazing. sexamalicious beast. ahem. lol. and i shall continuously babble on about him when i come home...*cough* 2 WEEKS AND 6 DAYS!!!

so this is gonna be my random post which will be fiolled with the doings of the last 60 days... firstly, i stayed at my friends farm for the last 3 days! sooo much fun!!! me and 6 other girls went. and then there was also phoebe, the girl whos house it was. so 8 of us! it was great! we had a ginormous tent and we all slept in there on matresses. and there was a stream next to it. and after me, ish, penny and phoebs went for a wee treck we decided to peel off and go for a paddle in our bras and undies. absolutely freezing. it actually was! me and penny ventured forth the furthest. but the highlight was when phoebes lost her jandals and i had to jump out and run down the river after them...NOT flattering! lol. and we went to some hot pools which was amaizng! even tho im now paying for it with all my sunburns! but i have to say the best bit was when we decided to try all the farm stuff. she taught me how to drive (: i hopped in her orange mini and went for a spin. and when id done that for about 20 mins i went on the motorbike. it was great fun! i got up to 3rd gear with the mini before i kept stalling it and making it bunny hop. and 4th gear with the bike before ish kicked me off. great stuff!

^^the 2 goths of the trip! me and ema (: haha. go black hair! (mines fresh from saturday!) ill miss you ema, have fun in tauronga! boarding wont be the same without you!

I look into your eyes. The world around me melts into a messy blur. All I can see are intense pupils surrounded by a fragile yellow and ocean blue. You softly smile, making your entire face light up. A tuft of mousey brown hair drifts into your eyes, but you casually brush it away, not once breaking our gaze. I return your favour with a smile. We seem frozen in time, our eyes locked on one another. I look at you, and then at the 4 inch revolver in my pocket.
kiss kiss, bang bang.

^^me and ish being creative on the trip up (:

and other news? umm...yes. my parents are back! they came over for a holiday and its great. ive missed them so much! i got really badly homesick this term. like really bad. i was sitting at dinner one night talking to zak, hadley, emma, ish, michelle and phoebe, and they started talking about their parents. i just couldnt handle it, and burst into tears and they had to walk me back. i felt like such a dick...so i just wanna say thanks to them, and also thanks to em, lou, naz, tai, charlie, jess, hana, hannah, and whoever else emailed me. it really means loads to know that people still keep in touch!

and on that happy note, the family guy is starting. so yeh, ill be off! thanks guys! and not long till i come home! woop woop!! lulu, ill see you on the 30th! happy bday!! (: and to all the others, cant wait to see you!

xx

2005-10-07T17:59:00.000-07:00

hey (: my flight goes in a few hours...so i just wanted to say that i'll miss everyone amazingly much. and thanks for being so sweet to me! ill miss yu all! <333